new beginnings

i have started this blog mainly so that jon has an easy way of knowing what im getting up to each day when he leaves for distant shores and is far away from the daily stupid things i do- but also i suppose for other distant friends to read my bullshit, and its rather wierd having this stuff on the internet- open domain for people to read my thoughts and know about my life is rather strange- and ever so slightly voeristic. kind of makes you feel important- cause youre writing your thoughts and no one can really tell you to shut up.. although that comments section may impact i suppose. hmmm...its also just a nicer way of documenting my life than through emails.. least this way is more fun too.

so im in training at the moment- trying to get myself used to the idea of writing stuff down- i used to write all the time- i have loads of old journals scattered around my room, along with much other rubbish, to prove that ive been through angst and teen confusion and rebellion.. it provides hours of entertainment to go back through them and remember what i was going through and why and have a good laugh at how lame it all seems now. yeah so i felt that i needed to get used to writing my shitty, self involved and wanky thoughts down, and get used to attempting to write daily- well at least as often as possible. i think im too excited about this but at the same time, i fear that i will loose this blessidly silly excitement rather quickly- maybe if i hear too many complaints about lack of imput it will motivate me to actually do something- you really shouldnt get into something with the fear that you are going to fail already hey?! god its started already.

so yeah all of this is merely a sorry note to anyone who has to read this shit. shame jon- you have to, as its the only way to know about my silly and ridiculous daily experiences. bet you wish you werent leaving now hey!? heh. i will try to be coherent and sensible, but i think we all know that the chances of that with me are slim if not impossible. that and i promise to tell you if i hurt myself or do something ultra stupid- like hit my head on things- to keep you feeling like youre still here- i mean what would life be without constant updates on my stupidities and injuries i have self inflicted.

but overall i hope it makes for slightly pleasant reading- if not enjoyable at least provides laughs at my expense. im too good at the self depricating shit. hmm. bitch if it gets lame and i'll improve by taking some wanky, artsy photos and write about my drug addiction and depression problem instead. isnt that what blogs are all about!?