zzzzz...

ive totally fucked up my sleeping patterns these days; after so many nights of so little sleep missioning around with jon, im in this state of permanent exhaustion. its like a zombie state; im totally numb, and just kinda of getting through the day (what little of it im awake for). cant seem to attempt falling asleep until around 2ish am.. only then to awake at roughly around 11... but still feeling rediculously rubbish and tired. think it isnt helped by the madness of busy, neverending dreams ive been having- seem to be telling me a story im not yet sure of at all.
it is rather funny though- i cant seem to stand upright for very long. came downstairs to eat breakfast this morning, well technically lunchtime, but whose counting, and seriously struggled to get through the making proceedure just becuase i didnt feel like standing anymore- had this seriously strong physical desire to lie down. think this is getting dire. cant go through life lying down all the time, can one?
it did make me feel incredibly bovine though: walking slowly and steadily through the house, pottering and fucking around, while munching on some lettuce leaves. just kept thinking mooo, moooo. god. im turning in a cow. things arent working in my favour.