this is getting ridiculous

i seem to be tired too much of the time.. cant seem to do anything proper or constructive these days as i'm simply a zombie, dreaming of my bed and sleep time- and yet, when i lie down to sleep, ha that when its all engines go and my energy levels seem to jump through the roof. crazy. i was awake for nearly two hours this morning, between the wonderful and delightful hours of 4 and 6 am.. and my room doesnt have these modern day inventions called curtains. sigh. so as a consequence i couldnt do a thing today- wondered around a shopping centre for a while, with the sole purpose of exchanging a book i already had, for another that would be more interesting. i've taken to listening to my ipod in public these days, particularly in malls- it makes the shopping experience bearable and even moderately pleasant- anyway it toook me around an hour to find and purchase one book. im getting useless. and im terrified that im going to be like this at work- and still pretend to come home and work some more on the thesis. who am i kidding- can this impossible feat really be done?! unfortunately for me, it appears that only the good lord above has answers to problems such as these. looks like its back to the sleeping tablets for me. theres nothing in the world that cant be killed/ cured/ or resolved by prescription medication. god bless doctors and drug companies.