ag.

problem: i have just received a new project for work.
so from now on, i have two 'babies' that i am in charge of. poor, poor communities who have me as their development economist; i think they got screwed without even knowing it. the problem is now that my work load increases dramatically, just as i was getting used to the idea of not really doing much just yet while my project was getting on its feet and barely starting up. damn now i really have to pretend that i know what im doing, and actually attempt to do some work, not just play on the internet doing "research" (i.e playing on blog and reading others) all day long. i have to be productive and rise early and set myself tasks and deadlines and all. sigh. i love the thought of the pay check that will come soon (well first of next month) but now the reality of having to actually work for it has set in. sigh. im part of the real world now; not that strange false illusion of reality created by university and student life (where you can have 3 month holiday breaks without stress, and not really do that much work and get away with it very easily- or was that just the way i studied?!). im going to miss it; well until the money starts coming in, after that, not so much.

i fear: i drank too much coffee and havent eaten lunch yet, as im shaking like a leaf. not a good thing when you are attempting to fake concentration and productive thought.
i think: that its lunch time. woohoo. that frot cucumber is looking good from here.