the tiredness. it never stops.

it seems that whenever im in the tiredness, most stressed out periods of my life, is also when im partying and going crazy way too much. i know they are related to one another, but im just failing to see the connection here. ha. this week has been mental and such ridiculous extremes; at one moment, im sitting in a five hour long meeting, bored out of my skull and with the most extreme cold ive had in ages, and the next im downing tecquilas and dancing til my feet hurt. im amazed that i am still standing after all of this. jesus. and unfortunately no matter how i try to pretend, and how much i try to run away, the work is always there, quietly getting bugger and more desperate as time passes. why cant it disappear when i no longer think about it, or prioritise it? the world would be a happier and healthier place i can tell you.
hitting the hay now, so tired can barely see the screen anymore, and have early morning meeting with the boss to discuss all that ive meant to be doing thus far..man, oh man am i in the pooooo. cant i just tell him to leave me alone? im sure it will go down well; all except the minor problem of the detail in my contract that says that they can fire me with only 24 hours notice. ha. i think i need some life changes.