i think

1) that its going to be fun spending my entire weekend working, and stressing about this report that needs to be completed and completely ammended by tomorrow afternoon at 5, just in case my boss wants to add any more comments or provide feedback on these issues. it seems that it was completely wrong, and it was real fun sitting in a meeting this morning (yes on a saturday) while my boss went into details as to whats wrong with it. so now, its back to the drawing board, despite me being so tired that i may just collapse, or have a nervous breakdown; both seem imminent so just just placing bets now on which one will be first.

2) that it seems that im loosing my marbles and falling apart ever so slightly; im not entirely sure whats going on with me, but i seem to be loosing bits of myself. it becomes problematic wheni loose them in a crowd, and cant reach them under someone's table. i need to pull myself together, and am not sure of where to even start. i cant carry on living off resue remedy alone.

problems. think its time to quit the job already. i need to sort this all out. but first the report. joy.