the pressure

is getting to me. i have the most mammoth of all reports due in tomorrow, and i have reached writers block. i dont think it helps that i have six million other things to stress about lately, not just said report, but that it is consuming far too much of my brain power and my synapic firing system that i think they have given up in protest. i really dont know what to write anymore- it happens to me often, whenever ive fucked up so badly and 'forgotten' the deadline, until oh like its TOMORROW. then the pressure gets so bad; the shakes start, the cold in my extremities so i can barely type any more, and the serious sweats. its not a pleasant situation, and not made any better by the fact that around this time i drink far too much coffee and rely on bio plus to get me through the hours. calculating roughly i have about 24 hours to complete said bastard report, but that is if i went without sleeping, eating, leaving the computer and certainly not meeting times for other projects. i think im in the poo- i know i seem to say that often, but this time ive fucked it up a little too seriously. perhaps if i hand in my poo... sure the boss will love me long time then. i was even considering quiting/ trying to get fired/ having a car accident (although was warned that this may cause stress in other areas of life- like parents killing me cause of fucked car) etc you get the point. unfortunately, the gods are on my side- nothing wrong ever seems to happen when i want it to, just so that i could get out of report writing. i mean some well timed lighting striking me round about now would be fantastic, but never happens. i need to learn some new tricks; how about electrocution.. i'm sure sticking my finger into a plug socket should do the trick and not hurt terribly badly?