terrible.

so the soccer is over. boohoo. it didnt feel real and final when watching. didnt want it to be the end. all this free time on my hands makes me realise that the work deadlines dont go away just cause im having fun and watching soccer. dammit. but my team won! wooohoooooo!! viva italy! and they doubted their superior skills and ability. funny i heard on the news that at least this will restore some credibility to italian soccer again after the match fixing mess up. ha sneaky italians.
ive been pretending for too long that work doesnt exist and that deadlines are just a thing of my imagination. unfortunately they do live in reality, and i lack that skill. its something im working on, or at least trying to foster. on friday i have to stand up and present the final product, changed, edited and perfected, along with a presentation of my key issues and areas of focus. i dont have any. i cant say shopping for pretty things, or having lunch with friends, right? shit. somehow i think this one is going to be a bouch job. my heart just isnt in it anymore. ha. i think the fact that my contract runs out at the end of the month isnt helping, as i just dont care anymore. my bad.