monday stuffs

there's something about swimming lengths naked on a pea soup humid durban afternoon that is incredibly liberating and awesome. had my last session of therapy today. i cant believe that time has gone so fast and that so much has taken place and changed since i started this process. i remember in the beginning i was so terrified, so incredibly scared about opening myself up to someone else to dissect my rubbish, actually delving into all the shit i was so good at pretending was there, and so bad at dealing with. and now, thanks to the whole thing, and the most wonderful therapist in the world, im healing, am okay, can giggle and laugh again, and can finally see some light at the end of the tunnel. its rad to say the least. seems and feels strange that im in the process of feeling normal and balanced again, especially since there was a clear time that all i wanted was to get out of my own skin. the therapy is over, but the working, dealing, healing hard part of doing it alone starts now; whats refreshing is that i know i'll be okay again. and if not, she's on speed dial and is just a phone call away. ha. i kid. its all me now. which feels good. im no longer wanting to run away from that. i heart good mental health. ha.