sunny times

just got back from the strange land that is ballito in the holiday festive summer season for the weekend. god its a weird place, where you are hit on by strange middle aged afrikaans men, surrounded constantly by little screaming children and no available booze selling outlets on sundays- apparently its a well know fact that there is no place open to sell booze (not a restuarant just a general store) on sundays- damn ballito doesnt like heathens. despite all these strangenesses it was a good relaxing weekend of sun, reading good book, and lots of eating and drinking. only to return on monday morning to have to continue with the endless emailing of my cv to find any, and i really mean any sort of job available. im so sick of fucking emailing that stupid cv- i havent heard back from anyone, nor does it seem that anyone is even interested in a semi intelligent young dynamic girl with higher education. what happened to rewarding those of us stupid ones who stayed behind and havent run away contributing to the brain drain- isnt there meant to be a skills shortage in this land? and i am skilled? why do these tow situations not equate to me getting offered lots and lots of jobs and money? sigh i hate this system- they all want experience and high skills- but where are you meant to have had the time to get all of these things, when no one is keen to give you the experience in the first place. fuck i hate the job market. and my debt is simply growing daily. dammit. so much for the relaxation lasting and keeping me calm.