back to grind stone

so its back to work today- well me and my lame joke, im a student writing my dissertation work, but am back at it full throttle from today. i was proud that i dabbled a little in it last week (too soon after new year though) but from now on its full force til the end- which isnt as in sight as it bloody well should be. i tired of this thing, and yet, still have so far to go. sigh. i still wish i could wake up one morning, settle down to write it, and little elves have come in the night time and finished it off for me. wouldnt that be nice? whats kak is:
* i still have so much to do
* the department are draggin their heels over my proposal, and still havent cleared it so that i can move on properly and dive into the actual writing
* i dont want to do this anymore
* still havent heard anything back from anyone about jobs. sniff. looks like no one wants to hire me- either that or all the jobs i want are in pretoria, and i absolutely refuse to move there. i would die. crawl into small ball and die. that where hope and dreams go to die. i wish someone would love me and my long endless studying career enough to hire me. sniff.

its feel sorry for myself day, and oh god, its only monday. hell im allowed to indulge myself every now and again, especially on my own crappy blog. woohoo. hope everyone's first day back is good and fun.