too much of the lazy life

i fear i am becoming far too accustomed to the student life again. waking up past 8, perhaps even 9 sometimes doesnt seem as bad as it used to. ive been trying to treat this thesis like a 9 to 5 job; sit down and just bloody work away at it, everyday. and so far ive been doing well. just the 9 am start is slowly but surely slipping a little later, the dedication waning just a tad. at this rate i'll be done when im thirty, rad. so its time to pull finger again; i try to write at least 5 pages a day, even if its shite at leat im still writing. writing will in turn at least mean i have something on paper, which can be edited, shaped up and reformed and thus slowly begin to shape an intelligent argument and thesis. this is all in theory, im hoping to see results and benefits of this process shortly. either that or i wasted vast amounts of time writing shit. i fear it may be the latter. sigh. after sleeping for a good 9 hours, im slightly less worried or stressed about that fact than i should perhaps be. oh well. here's to thirty! speaking of which, its rather strange to suddenly realise things in life have actually changed around you, despite you not really taking notice or feeling much different. my god brother (i know that position doesnt exist, but its way easier to explain who he is) turns 30 in a weeks time. this is someone who i grew up with from zero, someone who has always been around, almost the other brother i didnt need, and here we are about to celebrate his thirtieth birthyday. christ when did we start getting old? 30 was always one of those big ages you turn, when you settled in careers, families etc. not when you still getting your feet on the ground, and are still a crazy kid like he is. strange we've been growing up and old this whole time without me really taking notice, i suppose because i still feel like a silly know-nothing 14 year old. perhaps that eases with time and age too?! either that or all this lazy, take it slow student life is affecting my brain capacity a little more than i thought it had.