sjoe (again)

so it seems that the mood swings, weight changes, slightly lost feeling, is all down to the awesome fact that my hormones are totally out of balance. sigh, but at least it aint all me going crazy again. ha ha. the doctor did many a test, and all should be in order shortly. i like her advice though; just leave it and it'll work itself out. awesome i dont have to pump my body full of strange foreign things again, but.. what if it doesnt self-correct? hmm.
all this and i now have a major cold. it sure is a joy trying to sleep when it feels like a small gremlin is trying to climb through your nasal passages to wreek revenge on you and the world. bugger. seems my body is teaching me a lesson for all the abuse and hell i give it. im taking action finally, am attempting to be good (healthy eating, limited coffee and booze, enoguh sleep) but its baby steps all the way; especially when the temptation of crawling back under the sheets is simply too strong. as long as i think positively and believe im better, i will be, right? i watched the secret yesterday, think it went in alittle too directly. ha. now if i could just focus enough on that new job and lots of money, all will be well in the world. i kid, i tease.
think the flu tablets are finally working and making me a little dilly. definitely bed time again.