terror

the stitches are coming out today. dear god. im afraid. very afraid. it was one thing getting them in, the shock and the numerous injections helped to numb the pain, and made the whole experience pretty surreal actually. like it was happening to another person. now theres no shock, or adrealine, or pain killers. its just straight gonna be ouch. goddamn, goddamn. its like impending doom. or armageddon. or being run over by a steamroller.
you can see it coming, but are powerless to do anything to stop it or prevent it.
i dont like pain.