happinesses

i bought the prettiest little dress in the world yesterday. it hurt my bank account way more than i should have allowed, as now it means no gym contract, no yoga classes and probably no petrol in my car for the rest of the month, but i simply couldnt have left it lonely and by itself on the shop rack. it would have been too sad without me to fill it. and that would have meant someone else would own it, something i think i would have regretted for a long time. so even if owning it means staying at home a lot more, and dancing around my flat in it, it will be worth it. as those little red rose petals are going to keep me smiling for a while. the joys of retail therapy (with just enough money to afford it).
there is lots of work scheduled for this weekend and coming times. i need to do it, if only for my mental health and stress levels to be sorted out and put into place. im starting to freak out a little about it all, so need to change the idea that work is a bad thing in my head. if it means being free, calmer and able to move on, then so be it. there are exciting things ahead to act as motivation, particularly travel and good job offers, so things are looking up and up. let the deamons bugger off and throw myself into it all.