new beginnings are slow

its a whole new day, a whole new leaf, and hopefully a slightly altered and improved meg shortly. I'm back on massive detox this week, as have been abusing my system far too much; drinking should be a pleasure, not like me a national pastime. also just been eating crap, so its time to clean out the system, look after my poor ailing little temple i call my collection of organs and limbs and get back on track. I'm determined this time to treat my body with respect, and hopefully all the imbalances that have been increasingly evident (no sleeping, constant exhaustion, in some cases total system failure) will start to realign themselves and give me peace. so its fruit and veg, herbal teas and no crap (ie baked goods, especially complex carbs like bread and pasta, meat or dairy) for this week, and then slowly i'll reintroduce the healthier options of the above excluded one at a time. it does wonders, having done this super strictness before, but it is challenging and takes constant management and commitment; something like determination and will power have never been my strong points.
that wonderful healthy focus, and all that being said, its mercury wine week at suncoast this week, and already we're all making plans. I've been meaning to go for ages, just pity it would have to fall on this week wouldn't it. what if i have a break from the nazi detox for just one night? no crap eating, just wine binge? surely there's a little leeway? and so the rubber armed resolve begins. bugger, and its only monday morning.