hell

i haven't had a brain lately. they feel like scrambled eggs at the moment. life has been all about work, play hard, drink more, and on the odd occasion get some sleep. its been fun but mental, and i'm in need of an early holiday rest already. pity about that as it will only happen in December- its reached shit fest time with work and thesis is 3 weeks away from submission. jesus. its full battle and panic stations but it will get there. if it doesn't interrupt the drinking time that is. god. liver detox and no booze from next week- its the final weekend for fun then its all downhill staring at computer and no breathing, eating, communication from then. god help me, but its necessary. for my head, my job, my thesis, and my poor lonely and pathetic thing i used to call a liver. i cant even be creative or imaginative these days, its all about existing. but at least its being done with a smile on my face. especially since its sunshine, warmth and spring time today. about time.