new leaf time

things are finally going to settle down and get more normal from now on. i cant handle the pace anymore, so its bowing gracefully out of society for a good long time, and working my little arse off. everything has deadlines that are looming, and im falling way behind, so its serious focus, work nazi and detox time. sjoe. the future will not be as fun as the last two weeks have been, but that lifestyle cant be continued for too long i tell you. things start to go pear shaped and slightly too mental for my liking, and i just need sleep, good nutrition and to settle back down in normality and ordinary life. thank god. i had to scrape myself out of bed this morning, and i cant carry on doing that any more, and compromising work. its just 2 more months of slog, and then its summer holidays and christmas times. my favourite times. so the hard work is nothing until then- one last slog and then its done and over (forever). i just need to keep telling myself that. over and over and over again. especially each time the beer and party come calling.