long time

i didn't think i would come back here. it was over.

this blog served a specific purpose and role in my life for a certain time- i needed it as an out, as a trusty source where i could pour my heart and insane soul out to an unknown audience, without fear of judgement or anything of that sort. it was awesome writing whatever i wanted to and just releasing it out into the ether. then for some reason, well numerous ones, i no longer had that drive to write anymore. life got busier, with many crazy changes happening all at one time, but i didn't feel the compulsion to talk about it or examine it any more. not sure why, or whether that is a good or a bad thing, but it happened. and i left. and thought never to return again.

i hadn't even thought about this site for months, until a friend was showing me how to use my new phone, and accessed this to show me how the web capabilities worked. i had completely forgotten about the crazy lady; had released her and packaged her away (not that she isn't with me every minute of the day). but it was rather nice seeing it again, rather nice thinking that i still had that space as an out, or a place to splurge my thoughts and make sense of things.

so perhaps, slowly and randomly, i'll stray back here and write some, on occasion. lucky you.