hours of entertainment

super duper funniest story i just got from roses. she was traumatised for the rest of the day.

scariest thing ever, was just sitting today eating a toasted cheese sandwich on the steps outside the library and A HUGE FUCKING BIRD LANDED ON MY HAND AND STOLE MY SANDWICH. it was terrible, all wings battering my face and horrible bird claws on my handed. screamed very very loudly.

so please beware of those crazy sandwich-stealing murderous birds. they're out to get you.

haha

my first post (was wrong about anniversary)
made me laugh

Thursday, November 17

chillin

so just created this thing- think its going to have a greater life than i can control... we'll just have to hope for the best.
but thanks jon
suppose its all for you anyway
x

huh.

think its past the one year anniversary of this blog. weird to think how much stuff can happen in a year. im just impressed that i've managed to maintain something, albeit irregularly, for such a long time. i really thought i'd be useless and well over it after about a week. its been a curse and a savior. still is strange to think that you write to an unknown audience, about the personal/ impersonal crap that occurs in your life. that this stuff sits as a chronicle of my existence over the last year of time. ive loved and hated over that time, so thanks for reading.

monday stuffs

there's something about swimming lengths naked on a pea soup humid durban afternoon that is incredibly liberating and awesome. had my last session of therapy today. i cant believe that time has gone so fast and that so much has taken place and changed since i started this process. i remember in the beginning i was so terrified, so incredibly scared about opening myself up to someone else to dissect my rubbish, actually delving into all the shit i was so good at pretending was there, and so bad at dealing with. and now, thanks to the whole thing, and the most wonderful therapist in the world, im healing, am okay, can giggle and laugh again, and can finally see some light at the end of the tunnel. its rad to say the least. seems and feels strange that im in the process of feeling normal and balanced again, especially since there was a clear time that all i wanted was to get out of my own skin. the therapy is over, but the working, dealing, healing hard part of doing it alone starts now; whats refreshing is that i know i'll be okay again. and if not, she's on speed dial and is just a phone call away. ha. i kid. its all me now. which feels good. im no longer wanting to run away from that. i heart good mental health. ha.

coming soon

my sibling makes me laugh- this is his next up and coming project with jan and zander. brilliant.

funny

enough to make you want to praise the lord. or cheers him, with beer.
had amazing weekend on the farm, with midlands meandering, boozing, too much cheese eating, a massive hail storm, and getting stuck in the mud, between a rock and a hard place. at least i can laugh about it now. moving boulders to rearrange the road isnt as much fun as it should be. my body has paid the price. but awesome none the less. tons of hard work this week to make up for going away fun though.

ramble ramble

just noticed that ive done over 200 posts on this dear little blog-like creation. and that its nearly a year old. god, have i really been writing rambling shit on the internet for that long? wonder how many hours of my life ive poured away playing on blogger?! amusing. finally got some sleep last night, despite the most determined mozzie in the universe trying to attack me through the mozzie net. thank god they dont run the world. looks like im going to the farm this weekend which should be rad- feeling the desperate need of a change of scenery and fresh environment. hoping it wont rain too much, but even if it does, it means making a fire, sitting in front of it with a big glass of wine and doing very little else. my idea of a brilliant time.

you should never

i blame the gorgonzola, or perhaps it was the coffee. maybe. could have been all the work on my mind, the limited exercise due to intense hours staring at computer screen, or the strange unexpected and weird vibe at the end of dinner. whatever it was, i would never recommend it to anyone. waking up on the hour, every hour, when you started sleep only at one am, to eventually give up hope and begin working at 5 isnt fun. i havent had bad sleeplessness like that one in awhile. god its exhausting. working on one's dissertation, and reading about the kennedy assasination by dawn light is not as fun, riveting or exciting as it should be. as a result i am officially a tired worn out grump today. joyous rapture. not again. damn gorgonzola and its tastiness that impact on my life and induce my insomnia. it would happen the one night i've run out of sleeping tablets and so have no way of self medicating the problems and gorgonzola dreams away. murphy's law, or just plain ironic twist of fate and evil?

working good

thanks to jon for helping with coding problems and my malfunctions to change the image. it works, it really works. i was getting too sick of the old picture, despite loving it long time, but at least now can change the images whenever i want to. radical.
weekend was crazy funny and surreal all at the same time. jay z was ridiculous- arriving in a limo, free booze all evening, way too many tasty finger snackies, and far too much jumpin, screamin, and crazy in the front of the crowd. havent giggled and danced like a white girl like that in a while. i'm learning to love fish eagle in thanks, appreciation and insanity.
brilliant mail from brother when told about jay z:
Drop it like it's hot yo! You be shwinging from dem shandyleers whilz we
be hooping dat thang pooty style. Um... Yo! That's wat ahm talkn' bout!
Woop dare it iz! Woop dare it iz! Cough... Cough...
sssssssssssnnnnnnnnnnnniiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiifffffffffffffffffffffffffffff....
mmmmmm... dat some fine china baby girrrrl boom boom booom...
otherwise its nose back to grind stone this week- cant believe its only 9 weeks until christmas- shit when its put like that, you suddenly realise what an insane number of things you have to get done by the end of the year, and that its looming closer and larger than expected. dammit, somewhere between all of that, i have a thesis to finish- aaaah. suppose i should get on that hey. have good week.

changes

times are a'changing. slowly and with multiple emails to beg for help and code assistance, but they're getting there. i was getting sick and tired of the old look and felt spring clean was necessary. cant decide whether i like the new flickr badge, or the old, and how to fix the title image, but the minor hiccups and problems will be sorted out and all made pretty (aesthics as everything i hear- who needs content when the site looks bareable) again. comments are welcome if you dont like things/ that i should scrape this shit straight away and go back to doing work, rather than stuffing around on the internet. ha.

piece o'shit

blogger is driving me insane today. its malfunctioning on a grand level. and little things are pissing me off. enormously. thought i would share that, thanks.

finally

new pictures are up on flickr- god they've been a long time coming, but means that i am finally getting my ass/life/head together and back into gear. me thinks. i didnt take most of them, but will had the camera on a strange setting that day, so many of them have a strange grainy look to them- still rock though. more will be following shortly- just im running out of memory space on my ocmputer and so need a massive clean up in order to have space to upload more. rad. its strange to be writing again- its been awhile.